Saturday, February 4, 2012

Hi. It's me again.

Well. eventful couple of weeks. I worked my first Saturday and was on call for the first time at this job. I ended up having 4 call-outs. So it wasn't too bad. Of course, one call was during date night with "T".  But I guess that is part of the job.

I also had an appointment with my doctor. We talked about my wanting to go on testosterone. He admitted he knows nothing about the hormone therapy I want. He did seem a little surprised at the research I had done into transitioning.  He promised me to look into it and get back to me. Tuesday with be 2 weeks since I have seen him so I will call and find out of he has anymore information.  Through my wonderful friends, (you know who you are!) I was given some information and links that I gave my doctor. I also found out there were 2 doctors in town that do hormone therapy. I have no idea who they are but I also forwarded that info to my doctor. So hopefully things will start moving soon.

I also went to see my shrink this past week. It went better then I thought. It felt more like a conversation then me just talking about stuff. I felt I had more feedback this time. we talked about the "break up with "Miss W". and my plans to transition. She asked me a lot of questions. Which is good. We talked about surgery. Both top and bottom. Top being removing my breasts and bottom being getting a penis. I have thought a lot about both. As much as I would like one, I know getting a penis is something not possible. Not to have a functioning one anyway. Better off to keep what I have. Top surgery though. Lots of thoughts on that. Basically, I haven't made up my mind yet. I am willing but I'm not sure if it's necessary right now. I just want to start on the shots and see where I am later.

I think Dr. J was impressed with what I knew and what I had researched so far. And that I was able to articulate myself and my feelings on this. Lord knows I have spent a lot of time thinking about it and talking about it to various friends. I'm just glad that this appointment went well. I don't have to try and break in a new shrink.

I was texting with Birdman and Mrs.Birdman the other day. I guess the plan is to rent tuxes now. I smile every time I think about it. I am so excited!! With the weight I have lost so far, I think I will look hot in a tux.  I have to send my measurements to Mrs. B by the end of February. But, hopefully by the time the wedding rolls around, I will have lost a few more pounds.  So excited!!

I know there was a lot more rolling around in my head today. But it seems to be gone now. Like it dribbled out the back or something.  If  I think of more things, I'll be sure to come back and let you know.

Rumour has it, she's the one I'm leaving you for



  1. I'm glad things are coming up Milhouse for you too, and hell yeah we are going to look sharp. Can't wait to see you.