It's rant time.

So I was driving the other day. Minding my own business, trying to get to the track to walk with T. When the truck in front of me started slowing down. Slower. Slower. We get to a corner and he/she just stops. I'm sitting behind him/her wondering "WTF?" when all of a sudden, the signal light starts blinking.

ARRRRRRRRGGGGG!!! Nothing is more frustrating to me then people who don't signal before they turn!! Signal lights were installed for a reason people!! Use them!! At least half a block BEFORE you intend to turn.

And another one, speeding through school zones and park zones. Do you realize there are children around these places? And sometimes kids run out on the road without looking?

And drifting through stop signs? Really? REALLY?

And the amount of people I see still talking on their cell phones and driving! I admit, I was guilty of it before the law came into effect. But I have tried very very hard to talk and drive. I bought a wireless blue tooth for my truck. It works awesome! I only really turn it on when I am driving on the highway. Because in town, I can always pull into a parking lot to answer the phone.

And excessive speeding. I HATE that! Yes, I speed but never more then 10 km over the speed limit. And it depends on road conditions. If it is snowing and blowing, or raining, I slow down. I don't go blowing by people at 160. When I do pass, I wait until it is safe to do so. I can't even count the amount of times I have had to ride the shoulder to let some moron, who is in such a big hurry, he can't wait for the passing lane 2 km ahead, go past me. 

Whew. I feel better.

This stuff has been on my mind for a long time. I have always meant to write about it but because this blog is call "Becoming Oliver", I didn't know how this post would fit in. Then I realized, this rant is also a part of me. It's how my mind works.

I am a little worried that once I start my testosterone shots, that my anger will increase. I was told by my shrink to make sure I keep seeing her because emotions can run rampant. I expected that. I think being aware of it will be a good first step.

OK. Rant over.

I love a rainy night

Dustin

Hi. It's me again.

Well. eventful couple of weeks. I worked my first Saturday and was on call for the first time at this job. I ended up having 4 call-outs. So it wasn't too bad. Of course, one call was during date night with "T".  But I guess that is part of the job.

I also had an appointment with my doctor. We talked about my wanting to go on testosterone. He admitted he knows nothing about the hormone therapy I want. He did seem a little surprised at the research I had done into transitioning.  He promised me to look into it and get back to me. Tuesday with be 2 weeks since I have seen him so I will call and find out of he has anymore information.  Through my wonderful friends, (you know who you are!) I was given some information and links that I gave my doctor. I also found out there were 2 doctors in town that do hormone therapy. I have no idea who they are but I also forwarded that info to my doctor. So hopefully things will start moving soon.

I also went to see my shrink this past week. It went better then I thought. It felt more like a conversation then me just talking about stuff. I felt I had more feedback this time. we talked about the "break up with "Miss W". and my plans to transition. She asked me a lot of questions. Which is good. We talked about surgery. Both top and bottom. Top being removing my breasts and bottom being getting a penis. I have thought a lot about both. As much as I would like one, I know getting a penis is something not possible. Not to have a functioning one anyway. Better off to keep what I have. Top surgery though. Lots of thoughts on that. Basically, I haven't made up my mind yet. I am willing but I'm not sure if it's necessary right now. I just want to start on the shots and see where I am later.

I think Dr. J was impressed with what I knew and what I had researched so far. And that I was able to articulate myself and my feelings on this. Lord knows I have spent a lot of time thinking about it and talking about it to various friends. I'm just glad that this appointment went well. I don't have to try and break in a new shrink.

I was texting with Birdman and Mrs.Birdman the other day. I guess the plan is to rent tuxes now. I smile every time I think about it. I am so excited!! With the weight I have lost so far, I think I will look hot in a tux.  I have to send my measurements to Mrs. B by the end of February. But, hopefully by the time the wedding rolls around, I will have lost a few more pounds.  So excited!!

I know there was a lot more rolling around in my head today. But it seems to be gone now. Like it dribbled out the back or something.  If  I think of more things, I'll be sure to come back and let you know.

Rumour has it, she's the one I'm leaving you for

Dustin