Monday, December 19, 2011

It was a great,,,,


What were you thinking? Dirty minded person you are.

Last night, I got a call from an old friend of mine. (Sorry Rimbey. But you are older.) We had lost touch but never lost each other. Somehow, someway, I knew I could find her if I needed her. And she could find me if she needed me. 

We were on the phone for 2 hours. It was so awesome to connect again. We talked about everything and anything. Just like we used too. I would call her on Friday night, late, because I knew she was studying. And we would talk for a couple of hours. I miss that. She told me I wasn't allowed to call her that late anymore. She needs her sleep. Of course, she IS older then me now. ( Gotcha Rimbey!!)

I've missed you my friend. I will call you on Boxing day and we will have another chat.

Rimbey confirmed what I had known for years. I was miserable as a teenager. I think I mentioned I was the classic tortured teenager. We all know why. I have to say that it isn't like that anymore. I am happy now. Ever since I made the decision to transition, it feels like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. The same I did when I finally admitted I was gay. It's an amazing feeling.

And the question of how far I want to take my transition has come up in a few different conversations lately. Honestly, I don't know. I don't know if I am going to have surgery. I don't know about the testosterone yet. I haven't talked to my doctor or my shrink yet. It maybe a while before I even get on testosterone. I guess it depends on whether or not they think it is something I need to feel normal.

And then I got an email from Lori. My cous. She is the most I tell ya! I know that whatever else happens in my life, she has my back. Just like I had hers when her brother would pick on her when we were kids. Remember that Lori? I do believe I beat him up a few times. HAHA!!

I spent my Saturday night being a D.D for a Christmas party. It was fun. I didn't get home till 2:30 AM. But I got quite a few folks home safely. And I made some cash. So it was cool. There was one young girl who had way too much way too early. Took two of us to get her into the house. Then I had to promise to go find her boyfriend before she would even sit down. I remember being that drunk before. I was so embarrassed afterwards. I don't know how people can't be. some of them seem to have no shame about being that drunk. Maybe I have too much self respect to drink that much very often. I figure if I get drunk once every couple of years or so, I'm good. I am going to have a few drinks at my buddy's wedding in June. There will also be a lot of dancing and carousing.

Well, my mind is empty. (Never mind.) Remember,

You must be crazy for me.



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1 comment:

  1. Hey there. Great post, but I didn't get a notification for this, or the one yesterday. It's odd, because I got one for the one before this one. Anyhow, I'll be back out there on the 5th, and hopefully we can meet up again. Keep on, keeping on.